Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Doodle doubter

Rehearsal last night was challenging. I spent the whole time doubting if I am even capable of bringing what's needed to the character I play in Act 2. It's weird because he's a lot like me. I have to be more honest than I've been in a long time. Onomatopoeia honest. I guess I should try to remember how I mustered up the courage to do that and feed into that courage. I just felt like I was floundering on the stage and I didn't know what to do. I wanted to hide my gigantic 6'2'' self behind my tiny 6" script. And believe me, I tried to hide behind it. I tried. I need to pretend to garden. I don't know why I couldn't even fathom how to do that. I felt like an ass hat on crack. Oy. Tonight we go back to working on Act 1, which is my comfort zone. I'm glad to be back to doing something that doesn't suck, but I know that I have SO MUCH WORK TO DO for Act 2. Anyhoo. Wish me luck or divine intervention or something.

I miss seeing shows. Back in the time of P. I did see basically everything. I am just completely booked from now through April. Oh well. I'll see shows in May, or something, I guess.

I don't understand why people who work in offices in very very close proximity to others would leave their cell phones on. Put it on vibrate or silent people. Those ringers are so annoying! Believe me, I know. I would be mortified if for some reason Noodle called my cell during the day and I had forgotten to put it on silent. "If you were gay, that'd be okay, I mean cuz hey, I'd like you anyway. Because you see, if it were me, I would feel free to say, that I was gay but I'm not gay." TURN EM OFF.

Welcome to Niwa. She is linked over there ----> as Sombrero Chic. Chic out her blog and comment. And since we're welcoming blog virgins, Madame Renea Knight is also blogging now. She is linked as Knacht something ---->.

Is it over yet? I don't even know to what I'm referring but I hope the end is near.

8 comments:

Darla said...

Apparently we heart challenges lately. I don't know what makes me think I can stay awake for 24 hours, then be good, at something I just helped create. What?

You are better then you. So no worries. NO WORRIES. We'll run it if you want. When you're not rehearsing. Wait, you're never not rehearsing.

His name is Carter. Not P.

It's a fair trade-off to be too busy being IN shows to see them. :)

JasonBSchmidt said...

You are crazy to be taking on that crazy challenge, but you'll be great. It sounds like something you will be really GREAT at.

Always rehearsing. Oh well. Gotta have a coaching session in a conference room at Lizard. Oy.

I forgot. Oy Carter.

You're right, damnit. DAMNIT.

Carly said...

What in the hell are you doing doubting over here? If someone told me to pretend to garden I would stare blankly for several seconds and maybe pretend to hoe something? Honesty. Scary. You know you have it in you.

JasonBSchmidt said...

Wait Carly, I have to take my own advice? MAN.

A chuisle said...

um, you'll be amazing and i will cry because i didn't see it but sensed your amazingness all the way from over here.

p.s. is niwa who i think it is or someone totally different?

Darla said...

Niwa IS who you think it is!

GMEyster said...

I remember seeing this interview with Peter Krause, when he auditioned for Six Feet Under. He auditioned for David, and when he found out that he had been cast as Nate, he grew terrified, because the character of Nate was so much closer to who he was as a person, and the thought of being that vulnerable terrified him.

And he ROCKED as Nate, made that character so damn believeable and relateable, more than likely, because he trusted himself and allowed himself to feel as PETER would.

You will do the same. And you will probably blow all of our socks off because it will be true. And isn't that what we want to see? I know I do.

Trust yourself. Bare it. It's worth it.

Darla said...

ooh... she said bare it. HOTTT.